3. day

Well. My hopes that he'll call soon are getting to be all the more patethic. And when we broke up (he broke up) he was insisting that we had to meet often to talk "to do it right", and I said NONONO, and now I'¨m wishing I'd said yes. I miss him so horribly and find it incredible to think he doesn't miss me. Didn't he like how we were? Does he have no concience? Does he not care about anything? Is he nothing what I thought? Was I just never sexy enough? Fuck, what a day. I've done a lot of stuff and lived like normal. Everything is just so horrible.